What does Korean Language, means to me.

This post is closely related to my previous post
Applying for KGSP 2018 - 2nd round result!

I have been watching korean drama (kdrama) maybe since 2005 and 'My Girl' is my first kdrama ever (as far as I can remember) and next was Autumn In My Heart (AIMH), I still remember I borrowed my friend's CD to watch it at home and cry my heart out while everyone is sleeping XD After my 2nd kdrama I started to have an interest to sing my favorite song at that time which is an OST of AIMH titled Gido (Prayer) by Jung Il-Young. Enjoy the video below HAHA

So at that time I had a limited access to internet and not even know how to look for the lyrics and so, just by following how the singer pronounce it while listening to the song (I even recorded it in a cassette!), I created my own word as long as it sounds the same! Funny but true that's how I learnt my first korean words XD After I finish my high school in 2007 I started to study hangul properly by learning the characters and how to write them. I still keep those books though HAHA

The learning continues and I especially studied very hard while waiting for the announcement of the 2nd round result of KGSP-G 2018. When I got to know that I didnt passed, ironically I started to hate korean language and swear that I wont ever write in korean or to do anything related to korea it self. I stopped studying, put away all the books, I dont watch any dramas or variety shows, uninstall all the apps related to learning korean in my phone (which I had 2-3 apps) - conclusion is I throw everything away out of my life. I did. Totally broken hearted.

But,

One thing that I can't put away is, at the time I'm teaching English to a few of korean student and adult. I used to love seeing them but it gets tiring during the depression phase 미안해 내가 잘못했어 😅 whether I want it or not I still need to make money and they're becoming my friends so how can I put them aside. They're very nice people and I love how one of my student (an adult woman) tried to calm me down the day after the result is out (eventho I act strong but I guess she knew that I had high hopes so maybe thats why)

So I tried to get back up and since Ramadhan is coming soon at that time I need to prepare myself to be better. I can't stay the way I am at that time. Day by day things get better and till this day I watch kdrama as usual and I had some thoughts that its not useless to study korean language. Yet, its an advantage if I can speak other languages so why not!? Eventhough I dont actually study hard like I did before but it is more than enough that I know where Korean language stands in my heart. Gituh kau berkata-kata, laily! XD

I realised that I studied korean because I'm curious and because of the language itself, not because of KGSP only, so why would I stop learning it just because I failed to get the scholarship? Said me to myself HAHA

So thats it. That's how I came to a realization of how important korean language is to me. The 13 years time is not a joke.  Almost half of my life. So how can I stop learning it out of sudden, right?

Eventhough I took some time to actually realised that, I'm glad that I did because it never feels right when I decided to put korean language away so now I feel much better!
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Eventhough my korean is getting worst now xD

Quiz on Korea 2018 - Malaysia

More details about this contest click HERE.

Actually I rushly registered to this contest due to my broken hearted (refer previous post lol) so that I may have a chance to go to South Korea this year, again (I dont even understand myself what makes me want to go to korea every single year, can you just stop it laily!?) But actually I dont have expectation to join the contest and I forgot about it until...

I received an RSVP to the 1st preliminary. I was like..wow I forgot about this. Starting from the moment I received the email, I was contemplating whether I should say yes or no. After few hours with the thoughts of 'just do it for the sake of getting a new experience' I replied Yes. But after that, I still wonder around and think whether I should go or not since I dont think I can win the contest anyway.

Now that I think about this, wth is happening with myself with this low confident attitude! XD Even in the morning today after I woke up believe it or not, I was still thinking about not going and looking for a reason why. Thank god I did. Phew. Why is women born to be so complicated and overthinking. This is tiring XD

Since I did a lot of thinking whether I should go or not, obviously I dont do any preparation for the contest HAHA luckily I arrived 30 minutes early and look for some related questions and lucky me again I found the last year questions! Well, it supposed to help me since few same questions came out for this year's quiz too, but I forgot what I read. Thats what last minute revision did to me XD

I can say that the question is verrrrry hard for me. Most of it related to culture thingy and terms in korean. If you join this contest just because of KPop just forget about it. I'm so relieved that none of the questions is related to KPop since I know nothing about it lol

Most of the questions are objective (multiple choices answer) and some subjective questions which you need to write the answer in english also in korean language. There are few questions in english but you need to refer to korean phrases or korean proverbs given (which I have 0 knowledge at XD) Also for the subjective questions there are 3 marks or 4 marks for each depending on the difficulties of the questions.

Compare with last year questions, I think this year is much more difficult. Like I said earlier, I don't expect to win or even go to the 2nd Preliminary at all. But right now the thing that I'm curious is MY ANSWERS! ARE THEY CORRECT OR NOT!? XD I'm also wondering what is my level on korea knowledge. Anyway they might post the questions and answers (like the one that I found for last year contest) but it will take some time maybe.

As a gift, all participants received Ryan's gel pen XD I forgot to mentioned, I'm not sure how I got selected for the 1st preliminary. Maybe they choose everyone who registered for the contest since my session is the 1st one (around 40 people) so I believed there will be more sessions after mine.

So whoever managed to go to 2nd Preliminary soon, best of luck to you guys! ^^

Applying for KGSP 2018 - 2nd round result!

I have been contemplating whether I should update the last 2 posts that I've been drafting since the day I wrote it and today I decided, let's just do it.

Why?

The main reason was, I didn't passed through the 2nd round.

Sad. Yes.

Actually I had a minor depression and I'm battling with myself for about 2 weeks. Just right after the result was out on 30th April 2018 (a day earlier) until before Ramadhan started. I could say it was really bad.

Maybe because I had a very high expectation to get accepted and when I didnt...only God knows.

But I guess I've moved on from that phase and decided to do this post. Life must go on right!?

I'm not sure whether I'm going to apply for this scholarship again or not next year. I'm still thinking but 70% of my thought says not to apply 🤣 lets see how it goes next year.


Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS to all the successful scholars on 2nd round for KGSP-G 2018 I hope all of you can passed the medical exam successfully. The result will be out maybe on 20th June 2018, Good luck and all the best! 😊